Overwhelmed. Overworked. Tired. Dead.
Hey guys! I am here, today, to stress the importance of taking a break. Now, as you can see, I have not been active… for a while.
Where have I been?
What have I been doing?
Have I been doing anything?
The Little Update:
I guess, for the most part, I have been healing. Although I did, also, complete my final year of high school in December 2020, started a job as a Corporate Office Assistant in January 2021, as well as started my very own small business where I promote sustainability and sell preloved items <3
I am, also, currently studying and completing my Level 5 TEFL Advanced Diploma with i-to-i TEFL and applying to Film School for 2022.
So, did I take a break? Well yes, I did, and it helped me get to where I am today!
Focused and Ready for the Future!!
The Past:
I often felt like I wasn’t doing enough… I mean, I still often do. I feel like I can do more and take on more challenges, while others are trying to remind me of the things that I am already doing.
I tend to take on too many tasks, get overwhelmed and unmotivated, and then become too sluggish that just nothing gets done. An unfortunate cycle that I had found myself stuck in. It also affected my eating and sleeping habits.
And after leaving high school, it got worse. The restricting comfort of high school! Ah, what a concept. I always felt like I could use school as an excuse for not achieving what I wanted to, or doing what I intended to do, “It’s okay, I have the stress of high school, I will be more focused and motivated after school.”
But boy, was I wrong, and ironically, I kind of miss the restricting comfort school brought me. I was a slightly above average student with minimal effort put in, got alright grades, and received my Netball and Cultural Full Colours, and more. It was all quite easy and great fun!
The sad thing is, I was so ready to get out of school, so certain I didn’t want to study further, and now it’s like I messed up my chances and missed opportunities. And the same unmotivated behaviour followed me… without the comfort of school to protect me.
The Present:
When I started at the job I am currently at – fresh out of school, with no experience, and absolutely nothing to offer – I was beyond nervous and overwhelmed. But it was new, fresh, fun, something to explore and be nervous about. It kept me entertained and stable for a few months – until I was convinced, I wasn’t doing enough again. I mean, I knew I could do more, and I had the time available. But what I lacked was the discipline and self-motivation, needed, to do all the things that I wanted.
So, we take a break. Breathe. Let out our frustrations.
Stop for a minute. Whatever it is that your mind, body, or soul is telling you to stop. Stop.
For me, I had to stop being so hard on myself. Let go a little, be okay with doing nothing and allow myself to relax… because, I mean, I was doing a whole lot of nothing anyway, except I was stressing the whole time and denying myself relaxation.
Take a break! And allow your soul to relax.
And then what?
The Future:
Let’s start small. Let’s start doing a little something every day. Let’s get started.
Since I am self-studying and working, I thought that would be a good place to start, get a handle on the things in front of me and learn how to balance that. Then we start adding some small business activities, being active everyday and having a system for upcoming stock drops for clothing. Now, I would like to get back in touch with my creative side, starting my blog up again, being consistent with my photography and learning more about being behind the camera. I am so excited!
And most importantly, MY EATING HABITS! I lost a lot of weight over the past year, and it has been quite upsetting. I want to get my mind back on track and my body back to a healthy weight.
I am still a long way away from achieving my goals and becoming the person that I want to be, but I am starting up again and holding myself accountable to the promises that I made myself.
I will eat better.
I will do more of what I love.
I will be healthy.
I honestly hope that everyone is doing okay <3
I know this post was a bit of a rant, rather than an actual helpful and informative blog piece – but let’s get the ball rolling! The quality will improve as time goes on.
Please feel free to contact me if you need any help or anything! I am not a trained professional, but I care a lot and I am always willing to lend a helping hand!
Thank you for reading!
~ Jessica Jaymes
